I have mentioned several times in the last month that I will be publishing a webcomic. Originally it was supposed to go on webtoons.com but I have since changed my mind on that because the layout wasn’t something I cared for. Of course, maybe one day I’ll change my mind but for now I will publish right here on my own site.
I have worked on this web story for about 2 months now and it’s going great. I’m feeling confident in story line, character development, setting, etc. and the only thing left to do is the artwork. Well, that’s lucky considering I’m an artist. But, I’m also an over thinker and thanks to my brain and unnecessary anxiety, I sent myself down a path of self destruction and almost gave up on this project.
Looking at all the successful comics out there I noticed one thing, they were almost all done digitally. From sketching to coloring, start to finish, it’s all done digitally. No big deal, I’ll study and watch tutorials everyday and improve on my digital art knowledge. And I did just that. I improved my knowledge of digital art, just not my skill.
Oh, the wasted hours. And i do mean wasted. Because everytime i sat down to practice another new digital art technique, I dreaded it. I wasn’t excited even though I tried to be. It’s like trying a food you know you don’t like but maybe after a few years of not eating it, you’ve changed your mind about it. But then you’re disappointed again and are left with that horrible taste in your mouth and a pang of frustration.
That’s digital art for me.
I want to so badly like digital art and I really think in time, I will. But because I’ve put so much pressure on myself now to finish projects, I can’t spend the necessary time and enjoyment to learning the medium. And I hate just sitting in front of a screen with a drawing tablet feeling lost and defeated.
So I have decided to stick with what I know and ink and color my comics traditionally. The artwork is still good and I will enjoy the process. Especially since I won’t be comparing my digital comic to someone else with a total different style. But that doesn’t mean i’m giving up on digital art all together.
Even though I can’t really stand it, i’m still going to practice digital art, just on a much smaller scale. Like my phone. I am using the sketch app and a stylus to practice small doodles like the one I posted in this blog entry today. I’m not allowing myself to compare it to others (although I want to) and instead just going for it and seeing the outcome.
I will also add that I have a new found respect for digital artists. Not that I didn’t before, but now I can have an idea of what you guys actually have to do to get your art done.
My webcomic will be posted Tuesday and I’ll be updating my Instagram stories all weekend to show progress of the pages!
Do you put unrealistic expectations on yourself? (I can’t be the only one!) What did you do to get past it?